I took myself too seriously and got to the point where it wasn't fun again!
That's an old program my life used to run on for too many years.
Part of this journey is to live my life and share with you how the world looks through my lens. Whether that's thru my art or food or videos or this blog. I want it to feel like you're hearing me say these words.
I manage social media as my job now and that's given me the freedom to a new kind of creativity and schedule. I've actually been having a hard time with it! I am just surprised by how your feels. I don't know your to explain it. It was kind of like when the 2020 Panini happened and a lot of people had to adjust to working from home. It is just different. I sometimes feel paralyzed and can't do anything unless it's productive between business hours and I'm really trying to break through that.
Because I've dreamed, literally dreamed of the schedule and work I'm doing now. Now what's missing is that I forgot how to relax. Fear kicked that old program in again! Fear that if I didn't perform perfectly or answer correctly, then I'd lose it all!
Sometimes I need to stop and say “Girl! You are so qualified for this with and you are good at it and you are valuable and being so much to the table!” And then when I connect with my breath again, I remember that's true. That's the truth I now accept because I am that person. I am no longer running on fear.